When do you learn to accept compliments????

I recently had a business trip to New Jersey/New York. I have not seen many of these people since a year ago. A lot of things have changed in a year. I have definitely lost weight but mostly I have lost lots of inches and changes in body composition.

Over and over again, I heard comments about "how good I looked." I was questioned about many things....like "you're not sick are you?" (my company is actually filled with a lot of sincerely caring people). 

I would pretty much just wave off the comments and go on my merry way. I am learning to say thank you most of the time but really I still have a ways to go so it is hard to always view how much I have accomplished in the same eyes of others. I don't mean that I am not proud of how far I have come...because I am...but all I can think of is that I have long ways to go and how much I wish I was closer to whatever point I will think that I am close to "normal" size. 

When I got back from the trip, I was stopped at the gym by a client of my trainer who also said that she had wanted to tell me how much change she could see. Okay, now she is a total stranger and just someone at the gym....the one place I like to be anonymous....in the corner...not noticed...but I said thank you and moved on.

Some day I will know how to accept compliments and not feel so awkward.

In brighter news, I did the sprint tri distances at the gym this morning. I was painfully slow but I did it all. I even jogged most of the 5K at the end...with my fastest 1/4 mile at the end. This is the second time I have done the full distances. I do think I cut a bit of time off on the bike and the run....but the swim was so slow. I am not an efficient swimmer at all. I need to work on that. I am actually considering if I can do an olympic distance tri (for REAL) next year....maybe.

Jumping jacks are so much easier these days

I had a realization tonight at boxing. I do jumping jacks now. A year ago when I first started boxing again, I would totally whimp out on the jumping jacks....and there's a lot of jumping jacks in a single class. Well, I don't any more. For the most part, I do full jumping jacks when they come up in a workout.

A small sign of progress but progress nonetheless.